28.9.07

Dream

Now i finally understand how important dreams are.

The job was too boring recently so i kept weaving dreams. I've got plenty of time weaving a life for the next 3-5 years.

"just clench your jaw till you frown,
just dont let go or you may drown"

26.9.07

The inevictable evil in the life

I hate my job.

Loss of freedom is not what i mourn, since i earn the freedom in terms of wealth. The loss of being a complete person is what i grief.

The abyss of hatred hidden under the sweet mask, and the feeling of superiority embedded in silence. Those composed my daily life, and i cannot stop despising myself for being such a hypocrite.

To hypnotize oneself is always easy, to wake up is not.

3.9.07

Truth

The truth is, the truth is always cruel.

I hate all the excuses. We have already thousands of shit in front of us, and what i need least are the excuses and the bad attitude.

Growing up means -- at least for me -- being responsible for oneself AND his loved ones.